Grandfather's Funeral

My grandfather on my dad's side passed away last Thursday(26/11/09) in the evening around 6pm at Pantai Medical Centre in Bangsar.

First death of a family member for me, definitely really tough and especially with exams just around the corner, it's getting crazy.

I'm sure you can forsee it's gonna be an emo post and well of course it is.

Well, I was not all that close with my grandfather but I recall many memorable moments that I shared with him , usually the times when we meet up for family gatherings.

He could speak english so that was good, and he always loved to chat with me about wrestling WWE, the wrestlers and stuff, always saying it's fake and stuff but yet he still watches it for entertainment I guess, I remember him saying he likes The Undertaker dude. His fav TV show was Mr. Bean haha, never gets bored with the same repeating episodes. and he was one of the only persons that I know who absolutely loves to watch Animal Planet, he always likes to watch the animals on TV and was always commenting on it, haha just like a child.

My cousins and I were also recalling the time when we were young we used to go to my grandparent's place in Sentul, they lived in a shophouse and my granddad would handle the provision shop downstairs, and he always allowed us to take whatever we wanted from the shop, especially the sweets haha. I think it was 5 for 20 or 25 cents, smtn like that.

The times where he would stay over when my siblings and I were much younger to babysit us when my parents were out and stuff.

and one of the most recent memories was that he was also there watching me compete in the Malaysia Beatbox Challenge in 1 Utama.

well, the thing that has hit me the most was that I never had the guts to share the gospel with him, I may have prayed now and again for his and my other relatives salvation of course, but I didn't had enough passion and drive to go all out for God. The only thing I can hope now is that his spirit man has repented and received salvation when he was in the hospital, cos what is impossible with man, is possible with God.

but then again, I don't want to live my life with anymore regrets, this has pained me so much more than all exam and other failures combined. I'm sorry to God which I had backslidden ever since I went to college, that He has remain faithful, I pray for God's strength to pull me through this, and sustain me, I want to regain the passion I once had in my Form 4 and Form 5 days, life was so different back then. God is truly real and magnificent. I also pray for the strength and perseverance to study and pass my exams in December.

kim logging off.